I miss my best friend from Singapore and her family Its been such a long while since I've seen them. My mom told me to look them up over the internet. I saw her in friendster. But I'm not sure which is her. One day, I'll pay them a visit before its too late to meet them again. Possibly now I should consider going to Philippines Manila Sta. Rosa, Laguana after saving loads of cash.

Last night, I think I had a dream about death. I dreamnt that I died in an an accident and my soul roamed around Merciful reddemer parish. I tried to talk to people there but they can't hear me. I felt so lonely there. I believe that is what purgatory feels like. Its lonely and dark but safe. But I just can't help stop thinking of that chilly dark cloud in the shadows of the church. I was trying to find a door to another realm like I was trapped. Was it a near-death experience? I don't know of this dream but Im sure scared of it.

Augh!!! I finally finished writing lyrics to my song.....I call it Prince or stupid girl but Im afraid to show it to ppl LOL -.-.. oh heck. LOl w/e i wrote it at the moment. It was my feelings before but its also based on something about girls who watch too much love movies and they expect everything so perfect.

"Stupid girl who the hell are you waiting,

cuz he's right behind your back,

but you're busy dreaming of your movie star,

who will never ever be ever coming back.

You come cryin to his shoulders,

and he says hes got your back

But youre foolishly waiting for your fanatical celebrity

 go ahead just treat him trash.

Push him away and toss him through,

and just tell him I'm through with you

But the next time when your heart's in trouble,

You'll find only an illusion coming back to you.

Stupid girl did you ever promise,

So i guess you're just like them too.

Cuz u've pushed away the only guy,

who would do anything for you.

WAiting for your blue eyed angel,

blonde, tall and muscular too.

Too much  movies about dramatic love,

Can't tell what's real or what is not.

Sorry baby i hate to break this

but ur so called dream is never gonna come true."

I just can't get enough of Brian may. He's such a musical genius in one way. He made his own electric guitar and it has a very distinctive sound. His style is just so diffrent. I can't really call it blues or anything. But kinda indescribable to me. Oh also gilmour . What makes a good guitarist is the way he/she diffrentiates from each other. Slash had his own distinctive sound because you just know he is playing by his style. It sounds so like slash T_T. Then theres Carlos santana, you can immediately recognize his there. Steve Vai and Satriani too. Too many guitarists these days are like copying another style from another. Another distinctive sound would be Tom morello and herman Li. All the effects, you just know its them. I guess taking those guitar lessons was worth it eventhough I know how to play long while back.

" To be a good guitarist is just good. To have your own distictive sound, is 10x better. To have a technical guitar solo doesn't make it good. To have a solo with your own expression on it makes it a classic" =)

I'm back LOL. It's been awhile since I touched my tabulas XD. Anyways, summer was gone, good learning experience. Man I just can't believe how negative I was on that time. Just realizing it. My strive for power and knowledge(for wrong reasons) really was a negative vibe. I know I am not much of a religious person but I usually pray that I can see more positive outlooks in life. Where I can always be cheery like before.

God works in mysterious ways, and I just know I was insecure for a reason. WHy i became  friends with some certain people. Really, people change you in a way. I usally say to myself, people don't change me, infact they do. I'm glad I met people I know now because, I might remain to be a negative and emoish teenager LOL

I would say 2007 was a real roller coaster. Ups and downs and constant changes. I don't know why I want to be so emo in grade 10. Ughhh just looking back makes me feel kinda pathetic LOL. This year, I promised just to be myself and I just feel happy. If it weren't for this person that I met, I wouldn't have changed that much. And seriously, God does work in his own mysterious ways. He can speak through good people on earth LOL. WOW 0_o. I just can't believe I pretty much said that. I guess it took me some while to realize. This year, at grade 11, I let go all my grudges . Some of the people I held grudges with became kinda of my companions and some I just am good terms with em. LOL.

Forget emo forget negative. They won't get you anywhere in life. Only the way down. LOL

Here I come 2008 ( sounds cheesy XD) oh well hehe.

and happy new years everybody.